Saturday, September 20, 2014
We are given only one direction to go in life, and that is forward. Besides losing Megan, that concept was one of the hardest to get used to. Time just keeps marching on. When she died, I just wished that time could stand still so I could process the loss, to get used to the idea. But time just keeps ticking, and life continued to go on. It was so hard, because I wanted to just stop the world , so I could catch my breath and realize what happened, but that was impossible. But truthfully, if I even did have that option, I realize now that it would not have helped me accept that she wasn't coming home any faster.
People have told me over the past 7 years, that I am strong and maybe even inspirational. I'm okay with that description but truthfully, having Matt and Madison kept me going. It would have broken my heart if they not only lost their sister, but that their mom lost it, too. But believe me, I did have those days when I wondered if I would survive, but I did.
I do have moments though, when I re-live the day she died, or the days and weeks following. I still have images and thoughts that take my breath away. But those are only moments now, no longer hours or days of emotional and physical pain. Just moments.
It was a crazy time. We had so many people at our home for months to follow. I always said that Megan would have loved to be there. Megan's friends came to hang out with Madison and Matt and I was so appreciative that they brought their youthful spirits into the house. People brought dinner every day for us. I wasn't too hungry but I was so, so happy that the kids were getting fed. We even had a friend come who took out our trash everyday for us. In the first couple of years after she died, simple things became difficult to accomplish. I felt like I was walking through thick mud. Everything took extra effort to get done. It was hard to stay consistent with any routine. It was as if my routine was written on paper and that paper was torn into pieces and thrown up in the air. I felt like I was always trying to catch the papers and put it all back together, but somehow the pieces didn't fit anymore. Sounds crazy, I know, but that is the only way I can explain it.
So seven years has gone by without Megan and I wonder what she would have been like. Where would she have gone to school, what would she look like, what would our relationship be like? There are so many questions that will never be answered. But I do accept that is the way it is. I'll never know. But I can imagine.
This site has always been about Megan, but this post is more about me. I am not exactly sure why I felt compelled to write this much. I do enjoy reading the old posts on this site and would like to figure out a way to print everything out so I have a hard copy of it. I am actually afraid that this site might disappear sometime into cyberspace.
If you are reading this, it means that you are still visiting the site and thinking about Megan. Thanks for that. I always hope to keep her memory alive.
Friday, March 30, 2012
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Monday, October 18, 2010
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Event day registration is available!!! Come early. 5k starts at 10am. See you there!!
Check out this OC Register_Article 10/12/2010
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Thank you to the Dana Hills Cross Country team for the plaque which now marks Megan's Grove. Megan loved the Cross Country family and was so happy to be part of the team.
Megan would be 17 years old today. Selfishly, I wish that I had a chance to see what she would have been like at 17 years old. I wish she had the chance to experience 17 years of life. At least. Kids shouldn't die so young. Kids shouldn't die before their parents. It's not the way it is supposed to work.
Thank you to Micaela C. who started the "Wear Blue on March 30th" event on Facebook to honor Megan. She would love that. I hope that everyone has a bright blue day today!!
Saturday, January 30, 2010
What a fun photo of Matt and Megan! This is probably the last one that they took together! It was sent to me by my sister and was taken in the summer of 2007. We went to watch their cousin Corey's band play at a club in Anaheim. I completely forgot this, but I was reminded that we also had tickets to watch him play at the Coach House in San Juan Capistrano the night that Megan passed away.
I know that I haven't updated the site since the Run 4 Megan, and really don't have a good reason. Since the run, we have donated AED's to the Ocean Institute in Dana Point and they are now fully equipped if anything should arise. There are so many kids that use the facility all year round, as well as many weddings, meetings, and get togethers that take place at the facility. Right after we donated, a father of a bride passed out at a wedding, and I heard that the Ocean Institute personnel had the AED nearby if needed. Luckily, it wasn't necessary but it does give peace of mind to everyone involved.
I replanted flowers at Megan's Grove today. The rain, wind, and lack of warm sunshine has taken a toll on Megan's Grove, but I am sure that things will grow well this Spring. I met the new Park Ranger, who is just so sweet, and she told me how many people she sees visit the Grove. I really do embrace my time there, and it is really a special place.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Here are some photos:
Check out this AED success story!!!
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
All proceeds benefit the Megan Myers Memorial Fund, a non profit fund, which promotes safety and education for our community kids!!
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
We are still in the planning stages of the Run 4 Megan and should know more soon. There will be construction in the LN Regional Park starting in Sept. which could affect our run. The race director is trying to figure out the changes and will get back to me when he knows something!!
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Monday, May 11, 2009
Check out these photos which were sent to me by Megan's friend, Alissa! They are from an End of 8th Grade beach party, and from the 8th Grade Dance, taken in June, 2007. I am ALWAYS so thrilled to get photos of Megan, no matter when or where they were taken!!! I especially love the recent ones, which remind me of the happy Megster who was so ready to take life on!!!
Monday, April 20, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Sunday, December 21, 2008
This year has been one of healing and I guess just processing what has happened. I can tell you first hand, that time really doesn't heal anything, it just makes it different. For me anyway. There are days when I get busy with life and feel okay, and other days when some thoughts can literally still take my breath away. There have been many days when I just wished that time could stand still so that I can just absorb and make sense of everything, but luckily time goes on, life goes on..... it has to. And so do we.
So we are all looking forward to another New Year, an upcoming family vacation, spending time with old and new friends, and just more adventures together in this wonderful life!!!
Happy Holidays Everyone!!
Monday, November 24, 2008
I love this photo!! You might have seen it before on this site, but I wanted to post it again. I guess I just like to look at it, because it reminds me of the happy times that Megs and friends had. These girls and their families are still a big part of our lives and always will be. We ended up having to give a copy of this photo to the news people who were at our door after Megan passed away. Somehow they got Megan's 7th or 8th grade photo, and she would not have been happy to have that one published in the paper or on the news!!
The 6 weeks since the Run for Megan went by in a flash. I can't believe that this is Thanksgiving week already!! Happy Thanksgiving everyone!! Gail
Monday, October 13, 2008
Here are some photos with many more to follow!!!Please send me your photos from Sunday, since I was too busy psyching myself up for 3 miles and didn't take any!
Monday, October 6, 2008
The terrain is a combination of grass, dirt trail, paved street! If you are bringing a stroller, I would recommend a jog stroller.
It's almost here! Sunday, October 12, 2008 at 11:00 the Run 4 Megan, aka 2nd Annual Megan Myers Memorial Run, will be held at Laguna Niguel Regional Park. Come early since parking can get tough based on the number of events in the park that day. Parking is $5 at the gate. Register for the run on the day of the event. T-shirts will be on a first come, first serve basis on the day of the event. Thank you for all the wonderful support!! We look forward to seeing you on the 12th!!
***By the way, we didn't find the IPod by 9/26. I did say that I would stop searching on that day, but it has become somewhat of a challenge to me now!!! Madison is now the proud owner of Megs new IPod!!!****
Friday, September 26, 2008
I have learned over the past year that there is absolutely nothing that will fill the hole in my heart, because she is not here to see, touch, smell or hear. I can still talk to her, and laugh with her, and tell her about what is going on here with Matt and Madison, but it is not the same. I feel close to her when I feel the breeze, or see God’s beauty here on Earth, because I know that she is a part of it.
We have met some wonderful people over the past year that has helped give us tools to cope with such a loss. We have such incredible support from friends and family, new and old. Megan touched so many lives and our community has come together to mourn for her and support each other.
Megan died one year ago today, at the age of 14, from a condition known as Myocarditis, which weakens the heart resulting in a Sudden Cardiac Arrest. The most common cause of Myocarditis is viral. She did not have any symptoms. She just died during a cross country race for Dana Hills High. Luckily, I was there with her, she passed away in a beautiful place, doing what she loved; just being part of a team. Megan played AYSO soccer since she was 5, became part of an incredible soccer team named Pride, then branched out and started cross country in her freshman year.
When I look at Megan’s life, I can seriously say that I have no regrets and I know that she wouldn’t either. I picture myself holding a gold box in my hands, which holds her time here on earth, and it is a beautiful box, it is just too small. Unfortunately, I don’t have more memories with her to fill it. But I am so grateful for the time we had with her, and given a choice would have taken the 14 years we had, over not having her at all.
If you are reading this, then I would imagine that you have been touched in some way by Megan’s life and Megan’s death. I hope that you have looked at your own life and determined what is important to you for your own happiness and fulfillment. Our time here is so short and unpredictable. I have become so much more appreciative of the good things in life, not material things by any means, but the beauty of the Earth, my beautiful family, the friendships that we have, our good health, and just the day to day experiences that we call “life”.
Blessings to you all-
Friday, September 5, 2008
Monday, August 18, 2008
Monday, August 4, 2008
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Monday, July 14, 2008
Monday, July 7, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
The team has since been renamed Megan's Pride!!
Click on the link for more game photos, as well as photos from the end of the year party on June 13, 2008.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Right after I posted the dates, I received a poem from a friend, via e-mail. I rarely forward e-mails, and I usually don't get much out of them except a quick chuckle while working away at the computer. This one really stuck with me, especially the timing of it. So check out The Dash Poem (on the sidebar) and when you think about Megan's dates, don't focus on the end date, focus on the dash!
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Here are some photos of Megan with friends and family. We have so many boxes of photos, none of which are organized. So I decided to tackle a box today and these are a few of my favorite pictures.
The photo above was taken near the end of 8th grade by Karen, one of Megan's friends. Megan's friends gave me a wonderful signed poster for Megan's birthday with all sorts of pictures of Megan. Karen also gave me the digital photos and I will use more on this site soon!
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Saturday, March 29, 2008
It's Megan's birthday on Sunday March 30th!! Megs always looked forward to her birthday parties, just hanging out with friends, having scavenger hunts, etc. There were even a couple of years when Matt's band (with Matt G. & Scott) played at the party!! Loads of fun.
Megan had an assignment in 8th grade to put together a book which was titled All About Megan. I found and read the book after she passed away. It is a treasure. On the front cover she glued the following saying:
"YOU MUST BE THE CHANGE YOU WISH
TO SEE IN THE WORLD" Mahatma Gandhi
I have thought so much about this saying since I found it in her book. It is a beautiful statement and I am happy that it touched her. All of our lives have changed so much since Megan died. I know that parents hug their kids more, and I know that kids hug their parents more as well. It has opened up alot of dialogue in families and has made them closer. We know what is important in life. We cherish the good times and get through the not-so-good times. Through it all, we miss Megan more than words can ever explain.
Happy Birthday, Meg! We love you!! Mom, Dad, Matt & Madison
Here are some photos from Sunday's get together at Megan's Grove!
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
It was 6 months ago today that Megan died unexpectantly. I still can’t believe it. Our life is now so different without Megan. Today I want to spend my time thinking about Megs (like I do every other day), but I also want to think about all the things that I am so grateful for! (Check out the photo for two examples of what I am grateful for!!!!) I encourage you to do the same! Gail
Monday, March 10, 2008
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Friday, February 29, 2008
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Thursday, February 7, 2008
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Thank you so much for all of your love and support over the past few months. Our hearts are broken, but your amazing outpouring of comfort and friendship is helping us during this incredibly tough time. We miss Megan more than words can describe. The world has lost an incredible daughter, sister, and friend.
The Myers family extends the warmest wishes to you this holiday season.
Gail, Jeff, Matt & Madison
Saturday, December 8, 2007
Monday, November 19, 2007
Link to Pictures
Thank you to our family friend and landscape architect, Bret Carmen, for designing Megan's Grove. It is a beautiful, peaceful setting!!!
Thank you to Valley Crest Landscape Development for donating the labor and materials necessary to make Megan's Grove come to life!!!
For information on Cardiac Screening please visit HeartFelt Cardiac Project Link
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Laguna Niguel Regional Park
The Wildcats Track Club added a 5K “Run for Megan” run/jog/walk. The cost will be $20 per entry and all proceeds will be donated to the Megan Myers Memorial scholarship fund.
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